Attached To Forever

I used to believe that the aspects of my life that felt really good needed to be something that lasted forever.

The anxiety I felt that it would be possible for this good thing to go away was unbearable. The spiral of thoughts on what would then fill its place and if that thing could compare; round and round the thoughts would go. This often caused me to stay in spaces, with things, people, that no longer needed to fill my life, all because at one point they felt really good to have around.