When The Past And Future Collide In The Present
About a year ago I found myself in a space where it felt as though my past was creeping its way into my present reality. Not only was I experiencing memories, thoughts and behaviors that reminded me of my past in this lifetime but I found myself often remembering details of past lives. Some of these experiences and memories where liberating, a reminder of my strength, courage and inner wisdom. While others reminded me of painful sorrows and lost opportunities.
There were moments in which this reflections would become overwhelming and I would question the meaning behind what I was observing.
Does this mean I have not grown? Will I ever be able to escape this? How have I forgotten my inner power and wisdom so easily? Will I ever just simply know it without question?
All questions I have had others come to me and ask of their own life, I found myself unable to answer for myself. In these moments it felt impossible to see how the past and future could be so different from each other when in my present I felt stuck in-between instead of liberated by the strength of what was, the possibility of what is yet to come, and the freedom of what I get to experience in the now.
Then one night I found myself home alone. I made it a date night for myself, turned my lights to a magenta color (I highly recommend color led lights for mood lighting), put on chill sounds, and read a book. In this moment an immense sense of gratitude filtered through me, a feeling I had not felt in awhile. It struck so deep into my bones, like it was settling itself back home after being away for so long.
Through this feeling the words to the questions I found myself asking came flowing through me. I felt the mixture of grief, relief and hope coated in the words that wanted to be spoken. When I hear back the audio I will share with you, I am always brought back to that moment, how it felt, how it shifted my perception and each choice I made since.
If you find yourself feeling a little unsettled by your present reality, a little haunted by the past, and a little unsure about what will come in the future, may these words shared in this audio ignite the remembrance of wholeness, safety, and wisdom rooted deep within your being.
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